Where I am?

Sometimes, I ask myself questions like why should I live? Frankly, I cannot find any reasons because I don’t have a certain purpose, but it doesn’t mean that I live without any plans or goals. What I mean is that I want to have a purpose which makes my life valuable. I am studying hard and planning my future because there are some requirements to prevent weeding out in the society such as education, wealth, marriage and so on. If we don’t have those things, it is so hard to mingle with others. Thus we learn many things just for surviving. However I don’t want to survive; I want to live. That is why, I really like people who pursue their dreams; they are independent and active; they know Dos, Don’ts, and how to moderate themselves.

Until now, I am just surviving without a purpose. I think this makes me worry about my future. Maybe people who read this can think that you are a lucky duck because you can have a regular education and enough welfare to survive. Yes! I think you are right.  However, I think that if I am satisfied with what I have, I cannot promote my life. I strongly believe that if water doesn’t flow, water must be spoiled. I think, our lives are like water. Our lives should flow, and we should be the ones who build the way for making our lives flow before they are spoiled. Recently, I read a speech and I strongly agree with what he said; according to him, we don’t find the way, we build the way in life.

I will build my way in life whether it is good or not. Surely, the first step is finding what to do and I guess that this is the hardest part. I don’t know what chances God will give me and I believe that He always gives what I need and want. but I don’t notice it. Whether I get them or not, that is my responsibility. He is totally unpredictable, right? Anyway, He led me here to study English and I am thinking that this is a second chance among three in my life. Meaning to say, I will build the way in my life regarding with English. He gave me direction so it’s time to build my way in my life. Although I am worried about my future, I am happy now because I have something to do; I really hate doing nothing.